im so bored of this. poor mr goyette. trying to explain the depth of perspective and the magic of literature to a roomful of chem and poli-sci majors.
his interest is lost on my cold, clinical peers. they just dont get it. they cant see it at all. they will write generic, well-thought out bullshit that he will give them a's on, but he can see the lack of interest. that sucks, especially for such a young and eager teacher. sarah is so right. if life was like harry potter, we would rock the world.
she is like my favorite person. i loved the things they carried. its so very... my style. i had a dream that i got another writing award... for my xanga.
griffin and bosch presented it to me. wtf?
i was horrified. they posted the link on a BANNER in front of the entire auditorium. it was like, an entire assembly dedicated to this page. "you might belong in gryffindor" was everywhere.
and griffin gave a speech. a long one. about how he couldnt believe the pain ive experienced. i dont see a lot of pain here, though.
a lot of 'i hate griffin'. yeah.
of course, i left halfway through and rented a christmas movie because my dreams make no sense, ever. just saw a trailer for new moon, and i cant stop laughing. these movies are soooo gay. i honestly have such little respect for people who like them. rob pattinson will always be gorgeous cedric in my mind. i never understood that song by hilary and haylie duff, our lips are sealed. rumors by lindsay lohan made sense because there were rumors about lindsay lohan. but no one was saying anything about the duffs. yeah, you see theeeeem, they talk about us, telling lies, now, thats no surprise. what lies? no one knows haylie and hilary is boring! no one was spreading any lies, lizzie mcguire! hey bri. remember when we used to hang out? im going to check my sat scores sometime this week. cuz i kinda wanna know how i did before i take my sat2s. ive been second guessing my career choice more than ever. i still wanna do neurosci, but i dont wanna cure alzheimers or treat schizos. i really just wanna study the biology of emotions. but that doesnt really benefit anyone. and people dont tend to pay you unless youre helping someone. as for the doctor thing. helping people has never been a priority of mine, obvi. and can you imagine my bedside manner? disastrous. sometimes i hate thinking of religion. because while i find that the most intelligent and interesting people do not believe in god, the happiest are devoutly religious.
maybe religion is a joke, but can you honestly tell me that believing in something bigger than yourself doesnt make you happy? doesnt make you a better person?
thats why i am so genuinely happy for religious people. because they have the potential for a kind of happiness that i could only dream of. this is one of the only times a teacher has embarassed me.
d: get to know each other. find out if you all like nickelback.
b: i like nickelback. do you?
r: i hate nickelback.
b: oh... you like nickelback, right?
k: i hate nickelback.
d: who likes nickelback?
b: no, they both hate nickelback.
d: well then, r and k, dont forget to invite us to the wedding! juuuuune. feels like april. but my ipod says otherwise, so i will smile despite others' crappy moods. i hate it when im trying to have a good day and everyone around me is a zombie. i burned that paper goyette handed back. a bit unsatistfied with his feedback, but i didnt really expect a connection anyway. lemme be romantic for a sec? cuz ive been feeling lonely. lonely as in, im in an i-need-a-boyfriend phase. its this hollow ache that radiates through my chest whenever i remember it.
i need the warmth of someone hugging me from behind to melt away the tension in my shoulders.
i need someone to bring me snapple without me asking.
i need to know that someone always thinks of me when they set up their plans for the weekend.
i need someone to teach me that there are people are worth caring about.
i need to hold someones hand. more than anything in the world. im so socially inept, but now im getting bored of it. im bored of having 2 friends and im bored of having no group and im bored of being the loner of the class in every class. i just want college to be here now. because college is a nice big reset button on all my failed friendships and nonexistent relationships. and next time around i can do it right. pretend to be nice, so i can be mean. 
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